to be frank, i remember, and at times, long for the days of my youth,
not because of anything relating to the external attributes young people may possess
like preferred body weight and shape, plump skin, or hair without silver highlights. Nah.
i remember how resilient and unaffected i was by
life's challenges. though i've always been a thinker ready to pop, maybe i was a bit unconscious, that's why i believed=
things would work themselves out + i'd be insulated from the turbulence of a crashing spiritual let-down.
well, with the sophisication of age, experience, and awareness {the thinker popped} my emotional capability to effortlessly rebound from LOve challenges greatly
diminshed over the past 7 years. i have had to seek and learn how to rebound, re-set,
and re-LOve my life / my Self and
with the practice of conscious-ness:
courage {to feel, give, and let go!},
perception and visualization,
gratitude
last week i presented my first book: the 21-day LOve-fest {YAY!!} and how the processes and behaviors i suggest in my book evolved from facing my very personal LOve challenges
one of which was [ is ]
~working through, dealing with, and learning from an emotionally-parched
parent/ child relationship [mE, the child]
i have always been quirky / dreamy with a fantasticly decorative heart/mind.
to my already colorful, emotional, starry-souled Self was also added the desire to penetrate
life with courage and wonder. my wanderer spirit experienced
much jugdment and little acknowledgement from touch as a child
{then and now}
7 years ago, i sought to address this rejection with the parent{s}.
though i could expound upon the means by which i dealt with the parents
and how they responded over the last 7 years to my efforts,
i'd much rather share my personal shift:
i took space to be with just mE.
in this space, i looked at and embraced my color and wonder and quirks. because of this space
i was able to listen ONLY to my inner voice, which is NOT harshly judgmental of mySelf.
i needed this distance, removal from the perceived source of my discontentment,
to see the LOve INSIDE.
~my LOve for mE~
being in unconditionalLOve with mE
is imperative to generate the compassion enough to perceive and visualize forgiveness outside of mE!!!
i am - right now - visualizing LOve and connectedness
and acceptance for my parent/child union. i am - right now -
expecting that as i cultivate this LOve in vision, in feeling- even as it's in secret-
it will re-shape and harvest what my heart deeply intends for both of us:
conscious fluidity of unconditionalLOve
5 comments:
I have found for myself that our life journey may at times seem littered with challenges that work to dilute our joy, minimize our accomplishments and cast fear upon our very present and imminent futures. However, if we like you, take a moment to step aside, be measured in our thoughts, a spiritual wholeness that already exists within us is waiting to be discerned. It is without judgment, without blame, perfect and complete. It is the very kind of love of which you speak. I have been led to believe that life is less about discovery and more so about unveiling what has always stood in front of us. Thank you for allowing your readers to open their eyes, inspired by your thoughts.
This what I needed today. Thank you and thank you,"anonymous," for your thoughts, as well. Helpful.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us, Michelle. You are truly beautiful, inside and out!
I tend to agree with anonymous. Life's a series of transitions. It seems as though we no sooner get comfortable at one cruising speed that, bam, we're older, with different challenges. I don't think we can escape periods of flatness in each stage. It's just that, with a bit of life experience under our belts, we know what this flatness is. This can either challenge or create fear. I prefer challenge to fear, as do you!
We all need unconditional love to survive living our lives. I am sending you blessing s and tenderness. Peace, Mary Helen
anonymous, i am diligently un-veiling the stuff masked by my pain. thanks my friend.
teresa, kittie, and mary helen, we are survivors together-- in some energetic way providing anchors for each other.
thanks to you all for grounding me with your presence.
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